So What's the Point??

So what is the point of this blog any how.  The truth is cliche, it's complicated.

First and foremost this is an opportunity for me to express myself in a way that I don't feel comfortable with usually expressing myself.  Well, about what??  The what is my weight, specifically the challenge of losing it.  It's difficult, I hate talking about it, and if my friends and family read this instead of asking me questions, all the better.

The next reason is captured in the name, "Jump in the Pool."  Sometimes, well most of the time I don't identify myself as what I am, FAT, there I said it.  Usually I would try to say something clever, and I thought of a few things, but then that wouldn't be "identifying," which is the whole point.  I'm shocked when I see pictures of myself, because it's not what I see when I look in the mirror.  I still see what I want to see.  It's time for me to jump in and recognize what I am, and change it.

So, "Jump in the Pool," and what it means.  I used to go to Water Aerobics at least once a week at the Balboa Pool, maybe 25 pounds ago.  It was fun, but the people are much older than me, and well, fatter, I thought.  Recently I have been encouraged to go back, and these days it's about the only exercise that doesn't hurt or make me completely winded.  But before, I didn't think I was like those other ladies, and now, well now I belong there too.  And I just don't want to "Jump in the Pool."

When I told my therapist about this, she laughed, and said, "Jump in the Pool" would make a great name for a blog.  So here it goes.

"Jump in the Pool" also is a great song by Friendly Fires that I had been listening to when we had the conversation, all the signs were there.

The fear is falling away

Keep breathing, keep searching
Keep holding on
Keep breathing, keep living
Keep holding on